pouring

[the little ones // headstand fundraiser dinner donation art project]



here it is these colors and lines these shapes i made the colors and lines. i wanted you to see but you don't know how hard it was tonight. it is a blur all of it life and time. people i love striking me they are here with me. maybe you know i shouldn't make assumptions, you have your own hardships. yes, but here i am tonight it was hard and i didn't know why. it has been crucial to understand to know why to know, but now there is the integration of feeling. it came before all the ones were to, my head blinded the pain behind my eyes. i went to speak about my discomfort and then i felt this catching. there is a lake caught in my throat. i didn't know why i wanted to cry and i kept on that. now i can see it doesn't matter why. it just is. it's all beautiful. i don't want to lose your love but i don't have it in the first place, so yes it is perfect. i can't shake this heaviness. i pray for that lake that was in my dreams the one i swam in. i pray for it now that it can pour from my eyes.